trying to look on the bright side

As much as I talk about how life sucks on this blog, I want to use this to remember that my life doesn't suck :) My life is far from sucking and I need to be remember to be grateful for all the blessings that have been poured out on me.

I will choose to praise my God even though I feel as though I'm being drug through the valley.
I will choose to be a blessing, an advocate for God's love.
I will choose to use my struggles to strengthen my faith, not weaken it.

So as I say that, I'm starting to feel as though I have my answer as to why God has me here and not there (like I was blubbering about in my last post). I think I've known for a long time. But I'm still not sure I'm ready to accept it. It's funny, cause as frustrated as I can get with not knowing every detail of God's plan for my life, I DO KNOW that that is what is best. Cause everytime God reveals one tiny little morsel of this huge plan I'm like, "Really? Nah...I don't think so." And I hem and haw over it for waaay too long. It's silly really. Like when God first told me to go to Uganda, it was a good...oh...six months before I was like, "Allllllright. I get it. I'm going, I'm going." And then it was another four months before I even mentioned it to my parents. Silly.
So this new development (which actually is not so new, like I said) is still simmering in my brain. And I won't reveal it until I'm ready to, so don't bug me people :)

I'm glad my God knows that it takes time with me. I'm glad that He can be patient with me even when I can't be with Him. I'm glad that He will continually love me and do what's not only best for me but what will be so perfectly fit to me it could only be credited to him. I'm glad that even through my all too wavering faith in Him, He will always be there.